Today really sucked. im not just being my usual cynical self. Today was extra bad.
My whole ecole was forced to sit and watch the other students swim at our annual swimming carnival. Add this to the fact that J had his HSC English Speaking Task today, which he was very stressed out about, and consequently i was also.
Not only all this happened, but as you will see on the Weather Radar shown on your right,
it. was. raining.
thanks a whole bunch. no, seriously- i appreciate it.
I am now consoling myself with some over dramatic Edith Piaf music and some extra folk-y Carla Bruni. The french language is very therapeutic, but yes i admit it there may be some Paramore in there as well (haha lame).
"convince yourself that its not the reason
you dont see the sun anymore..."
Topic 2 of this evening.
Annoying little "indie" posers. FUCK OFF. seriously im over you and your need to be different when really all you are doing is conforming completely and annoying everyone else with an original brain to the shite- house. You would not believe how frustrating it can be watching little sluts with wavy hair and ray ban glasses giggle and shove their starved-wannabe-anorexic bodies infront of anything with a penis.
Monday, February 16
Monday, February 9
choose
we live in a beautiful world.
can you not get past your egotistic thought processes, your obsessions with their misery and your addiction to feed gossip joyously?
of course you cannot. but you are the reason i write, the reason i exist.
to counter you all in every way.
to even out the strained judgement.
all in all, its getting very repetative.
can you not get past your egotistic thought processes, your obsessions with their misery and your addiction to feed gossip joyously?
of course you cannot. but you are the reason i write, the reason i exist.
to counter you all in every way.
to even out the strained judgement.
all in all, its getting very repetative.
expulsion of time
japanese shades and deep shade of red
long found lovers with strong coffee
poetic conversations
musical laughter, experimentation made with rice alone
strive for loss of time itself.
long found lovers with strong coffee
poetic conversations
musical laughter, experimentation made with rice alone
strive for loss of time itself.
sugar shit love
Beneath the cigarrettes and sugar shit of alchol breath
I can taste the ocean on your tongue
remember when we sat on the side walk
of your old blockagainst the wall
under the starstalking about love's meaning
Well, I wasn't dreaming
I meant every word
just to know your demons
do you know mine, babe?
are we wastin time, babe?
I can taste the ocean on your tongue
remember when we sat on the side walk
of your old blockagainst the wall
under the starstalking about love's meaning
Well, I wasn't dreaming
I meant every word
just to know your demons
do you know mine, babe?
are we wastin time, babe?
Saturday, January 17
art idea
originality.
that bench. has it been felt by someone else? the exact same feelings at the exact same time of the exact same day in another time?
No.
everyone has laughed there before. the cold chilling laughter, spiked with tension and regret. the warm, adoring laughter echoing freshly baked cookies, breathless laughter backed with teen angst and anger.
No.
everyone has cried there before. cried a little bit inside. cried for a loss. cried for a death. cried for a problem. subsequentially, cried for a solution. cried for lack of emotion. cried about not crying.
No.
Everyone has felt awkward there. no words, slight action. too many words, rushed action. no action at all.
Yes.
You are insignificant. do you feel it?
when you feel how small you truly are, it is time for originality.
You are original.
So is everybody else.
that bench. has it been felt by someone else? the exact same feelings at the exact same time of the exact same day in another time?
No.
everyone has laughed there before. the cold chilling laughter, spiked with tension and regret. the warm, adoring laughter echoing freshly baked cookies, breathless laughter backed with teen angst and anger.
No.
everyone has cried there before. cried a little bit inside. cried for a loss. cried for a death. cried for a problem. subsequentially, cried for a solution. cried for lack of emotion. cried about not crying.
No.
Everyone has felt awkward there. no words, slight action. too many words, rushed action. no action at all.
Yes.
You are insignificant. do you feel it?
when you feel how small you truly are, it is time for originality.
You are original.
So is everybody else.
Sunday, December 14
j.a.h
you are a whole new level
i am here
whether we continue or not.
i am here. always, you're not lost.
we see no need to speak, we can just be.
together we are at peace, moving faster and faster away from anything anyone else knows.
we understand us, others see not what we feel for it.
i am here
whether we continue or not.
i am here. always, you're not lost.
we see no need to speak, we can just be.
together we are at peace, moving faster and faster away from anything anyone else knows.
we understand us, others see not what we feel for it.
Thursday, December 4
my formal!
last friday, i had my school year 10 formal and it was actually really good. i had a good time with my partner j. we just laughed and joked the whole time and even though the food and music were fucking shit as, we enjoyed ourselves.
the afters were so good at c's house, but a little too chilled at b's house,,,,, we didnt start drinking until like 2am so that sucked so bad.
my room is in a state of complete mess right now. its actually ridiculous.
the afters were so good at c's house, but a little too chilled at b's house,,,,, we didnt start drinking until like 2am so that sucked so bad.
my room is in a state of complete mess right now. its actually ridiculous.
Monday, December 1
continued thoughts
i will list my best friends for my sanity's sake.
1) pippa; is an absolute babe in every single way. we relate to each other so well and i can talk to her about almost anything. she makes my life fun and exciting.
2) stefani; is the most beautiful person you have ever met. she has beautiful thoughts and beautiful compliments and is so beautiful. i can trust her with my whole life, and she is my rock.
3) jack; is a babe for the fact that i can relate to him in every way, and he still amazes me every time he speaks. he excites me and makes me feel crazy. i am inlove with our friendship, not in a romantic or sexual way. just in a way.
1) pippa; is an absolute babe in every single way. we relate to each other so well and i can talk to her about almost anything. she makes my life fun and exciting.
2) stefani; is the most beautiful person you have ever met. she has beautiful thoughts and beautiful compliments and is so beautiful. i can trust her with my whole life, and she is my rock.
3) jack; is a babe for the fact that i can relate to him in every way, and he still amazes me every time he speaks. he excites me and makes me feel crazy. i am inlove with our friendship, not in a romantic or sexual way. just in a way.
flat lemonade and half-eaten bread
flat lemonade and half-eaten bread resolve my eyeline,
and i ponder my position in life right this moment.
i suppose one could argue that one's position changes every moment, and i would definately be one of those people, but for time's sake lets refer to this as a single moment.
i have clarified mostly everything in my life, and if it is not clarified, i have mentally erased it from my mind.
adele's hometown glory streams through my atmosphere providing a very reflective environment for me to think in...
and i ponder my position in life right this moment.
i suppose one could argue that one's position changes every moment, and i would definately be one of those people, but for time's sake lets refer to this as a single moment.
i have clarified mostly everything in my life, and if it is not clarified, i have mentally erased it from my mind.
adele's hometown glory streams through my atmosphere providing a very reflective environment for me to think in...
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