today, a turning point.

sharing secret glances that only we knew


today i heard some absolutely terrible news, and i had to comfort my mate t. its his brother that is j so when t asked me to go with him to his house, i felt sick.
i knew i would see j, but t was so upset that i had to say yes. his friendship means more to me than my pride.
so i swallowed it.
i saw him, and it was okay. but okay, for me, for how i felt before is amazing. okay, so it was werid not being near him and not touching him constantly in his presence, and it was even weirder not sharing secret glances that only we knew, but it was okay.

and okay is good :)