After a long six months or so since my last post, I'm very pleased to announce that I am back on Blogger. I'm alive (barely), drowning in studying and almost loving life.
Posts soon lovers!
peace!
Friday, May 14
Tuesday, November 10
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
Cuz I put too much energy in him and me
Can’t wait til I get through this phase
Cuz it’s killing me too bad
We can’t re-write our own history
Such a mystery when he’s here with me
It’s hard to believe i’m still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain’t how it’s supposed to be
I’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
Cuz I put too much energy in him and me
Can’t wait til I get through this phase
Cuz it’s killing me too bad
We can’t re-write our own history
Such a mystery when he’s here with me
It’s hard to believe i’m still lonely
Chances fading now, patience running out
This ain’t how it’s supposed to be
I’m having nightmares from sleeping with the enemy
How do we reverse the chemistry?
I don’t want us to be the end of me
This love is taking all of my energy
Looking back...
People who have changed me:
Pippa
Tom
Elle
Jack
Shannyn
Jess
Morgan(Sinclair)
Its amazing how people can change who you are. I know it sounds conventional, and normal, and maybe it is, but think about how strong you are as a person. Everything you believe in not only is important, but its real. It exists. And don't you think anything that's real, and solid, and there, should be impossible to change?
Apparently not. Because the above people have all changed me as a person, and I thought i knew who i was when i met them. That's the thing, that i always ask..If you change, have you always been that person, and just hiding, or have these people literally created another chapter of you?
Recently, my friendship with one of my dearest friends has become particularly strong. After a year of loving, lusting, hating, crying, questioning, yelling, silent-treatmenting, and ignoring, we are back to where we were this time last year..
Sometimes i wonder if you ever get over your first love.. I know everyone says you don't, and I know a lot of people haven't, but is that because of that saying "You never get over your first love" or is it real? I suppose it's like everything really, Its different for every person.
I dont really think I'll ever get over mine..But i'm at the point in myself now where i'm okay with that. The connection I have with my first is so electric, so soft, so beautiful and so real that even if it is shit 90% of the time, its still amazing.
So, to J, I will always love you, and I believe a part of you will always love me, and that's okay.
Another person who has changed me is P, she is my original artist. When i first met her, I was into her straight away. Into her quirkiness, her weirdness, her strange behaviour and odd loves (greenday + vogues). I gave her her first puff of a ciggarette, she gave me my first pub gig, we both pretended to like cigarettes but we didnt like them at all. P has changed me into a person with an open mind, a person who is okay with how she is, a person who loves who she is, a person who is relatable and amicable.
P, is the kind of person i couldn't ever live without being around. She is a bubble of yellow fun.. Drinking is never out of the question and neither is chilling. Whenever i need to just get some zen (lame, i know) into me, Up comes p's number on my phone and i dial away.
Pippa
Tom
Elle
Jack
Shannyn
Jess
Morgan(Sinclair)
Its amazing how people can change who you are. I know it sounds conventional, and normal, and maybe it is, but think about how strong you are as a person. Everything you believe in not only is important, but its real. It exists. And don't you think anything that's real, and solid, and there, should be impossible to change?
Apparently not. Because the above people have all changed me as a person, and I thought i knew who i was when i met them. That's the thing, that i always ask..If you change, have you always been that person, and just hiding, or have these people literally created another chapter of you?
Recently, my friendship with one of my dearest friends has become particularly strong. After a year of loving, lusting, hating, crying, questioning, yelling, silent-treatmenting, and ignoring, we are back to where we were this time last year..
Sometimes i wonder if you ever get over your first love.. I know everyone says you don't, and I know a lot of people haven't, but is that because of that saying "You never get over your first love" or is it real? I suppose it's like everything really, Its different for every person.
I dont really think I'll ever get over mine..But i'm at the point in myself now where i'm okay with that. The connection I have with my first is so electric, so soft, so beautiful and so real that even if it is shit 90% of the time, its still amazing.
So, to J, I will always love you, and I believe a part of you will always love me, and that's okay.
Another person who has changed me is P, she is my original artist. When i first met her, I was into her straight away. Into her quirkiness, her weirdness, her strange behaviour and odd loves (greenday + vogues). I gave her her first puff of a ciggarette, she gave me my first pub gig, we both pretended to like cigarettes but we didnt like them at all. P has changed me into a person with an open mind, a person who is okay with how she is, a person who loves who she is, a person who is relatable and amicable.
P, is the kind of person i couldn't ever live without being around. She is a bubble of yellow fun.. Drinking is never out of the question and neither is chilling. Whenever i need to just get some zen (lame, i know) into me, Up comes p's number on my phone and i dial away.
Sunday, September 6
Wednesday, August 5
Tuesday, August 4
Monday, August 3
I was so much older then... I'm younger than that now
A photographic portrait exhibition that was on in Paddington this May caught my eye, mainly because Cate Blanchett (L) is featured. Take a peak...
love
When I get paid:
1. Silk Playsuit from TopShop UK $116 (Hot Pink)
http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=0&viewAllFlag=&catalogId=19551&storeId=12556&categoryId=146486&parent_category_rn=118926&productId=1299303&langId=-1
2. Over-The-Knee Boots.
RUN AWAY FROM SYDNEY
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh
♥
1. Silk Playsuit from TopShop UK $116 (Hot Pink)
http://www.topshop.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?beginIndex=0&viewAllFlag=&catalogId=19551&storeId=12556&categoryId=146486&parent_category_rn=118926&productId=1299303&langId=-1
2. Over-The-Knee Boots.
RUN AWAY FROM SYDNEY
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh
♥
Sunday, August 2
money won't buy happiness...but it sure will take care of a Drama degree
boo hoo, im going to cry! I have just reseached the drama colleges i want to go to, and they're all either:
1. Impossible to audition for because they are all in the Northern Hemisphere, or,
2. Going to cost me more money than i will ever make in my whole life.
Okay here are the possiblities:
- Stella Adler Conservatory of Drama, New York.
- Royal Academy of Dramatic Art, London.
- Juilliard, New York.
1. Impossible to audition for because they are all in the Northern Hemisphere, or,
2. Going to cost me more money than i will ever make in my whole life.
Okay here are the possiblities:
- Stella Adler Conservatory of Drama, New York.
- Royal Academy of Dramatic Art, London.
- Juilliard, New York.
Friday, July 31
the best kind
the best kind of love is when your mess is no mess at all.
the best kind of love means not caring where you end up, as long it's together.
the best kind of love is when music is different sounding.
the best kind of love is being crushed against a wall.
the best kind of love is when the laughter becomes an addiction.
the best kind of love is glamourous to everyone else, but normal to you.
the best kind of love means fitting together in a fitting way.
the best kind of love is when feet arent gross and work doesn't matter and you have lost connection with everything except each other.
but most of all, the best kind of love is when everything is different. the best kind of love is when you find yourself somehow above the clouds, appreciating a completely different life, and laughing so much lines are permanently etched.
the best kind of love means not caring where you end up, as long it's together.
the best kind of love is when music is different sounding.
the best kind of love is being crushed against a wall.
the best kind of love is when the laughter becomes an addiction.
the best kind of love is glamourous to everyone else, but normal to you.
the best kind of love means fitting together in a fitting way.
the best kind of love is when feet arent gross and work doesn't matter and you have lost connection with everything except each other.
but most of all, the best kind of love is when everything is different. the best kind of love is when you find yourself somehow above the clouds, appreciating a completely different life, and laughing so much lines are permanently etched.
Wednesday, July 29
say "im busy with hsc" one more time..
(Seriously. If one more person says it to me, i will actually kick their teeth out.)
1. Phedre, 2. Edith Minturn Sedgwick, 3. Revolving Days.
1. Phedre
For drama, I've had to research and come up with a concept for Jean Racine's tragedy 'Phedre'. Helen Mirren was recently in a performance of it at London's National Theatre, which was broadcasted across the world, to a little tiny DENDY in Byron Bay. The play is about the queen of Greece, Phedre, falling in passionate lust with her step-son. Its a crazy plot line, but I can only say one thing. She is a fox!
i recently got my hair cut, ala Edith Minturn or Edie. She is my fascination!
i found a poem as well which i have fallen inlove with...by my favourite writer David Malouf.
"That year i had no-where to go, I fell in love- a mistake of course,
but it lasted and has lasted.
The old tug at the heart, the grace unasked for, urgencies that boom under the pocket of a shirt.
We never write. But sometimes, knotting my ties at a mirror, one of those selves i had expected steps into the room. In the next room you are waiting...
(we have not yet taken back the life we promised to pour into each other's mouths forever and for ever)
...while i choose between changes to surprise you.
Revolving days. My heart in my mouth again, I'm writing this for you, whereever you are, whoever is staring into your blue eyes. It is me, I'm still here. No, don't worry, i won't appear out of that old time to discomfort you.
And no, at this distance, I'm not holding my breath for a reply."
How beautiful! Love.
1. Phedre, 2. Edith Minturn Sedgwick, 3. Revolving Days.
1. Phedre
For drama, I've had to research and come up with a concept for Jean Racine's tragedy 'Phedre'. Helen Mirren was recently in a performance of it at London's National Theatre, which was broadcasted across the world, to a little tiny DENDY in Byron Bay. The play is about the queen of Greece, Phedre, falling in passionate lust with her step-son. Its a crazy plot line, but I can only say one thing. She is a fox!
i recently got my hair cut, ala Edith Minturn or Edie. She is my fascination!
i found a poem as well which i have fallen inlove with...by my favourite writer David Malouf.
but it lasted and has lasted.
The old tug at the heart, the grace unasked for, urgencies that boom under the pocket of a shirt.
We never write. But sometimes, knotting my ties at a mirror, one of those selves i had expected steps into the room. In the next room you are waiting...
(we have not yet taken back the life we promised to pour into each other's mouths forever and for ever)
...while i choose between changes to surprise you.
Revolving days. My heart in my mouth again, I'm writing this for you, whereever you are, whoever is staring into your blue eyes. It is me, I'm still here. No, don't worry, i won't appear out of that old time to discomfort you.
And no, at this distance, I'm not holding my breath for a reply."
How beautiful! Love.
Monday, June 15
'YES, YOU HAVE THE FLU- IT'S NOT SWINE RELATED THOUGH'
Music, Theatre and Drinks All 'Round!
Last weekend, i went to Come Together, as a gift from my best mates jess and pippa! The music line-up wasn't as good as last year but i still had a lot of fun. Here are some pictures ...
I wore Cheap Mondays Jeans, with a bloch leotard and a black, silk Yves Saint Laurent for men shirt.
I also went to a good friend's 21st birthday celebration, drank far too many glasses of champagne and cranberry juice and sung wicked at the top of my lungs,,, here are some more pics!
Here are some fashion feelings i'm loving right now...
Last weekend, i went to Come Together, as a gift from my best mates jess and pippa! The music line-up wasn't as good as last year but i still had a lot of fun. Here are some pictures ...
I wore Cheap Mondays Jeans, with a bloch leotard and a black, silk Yves Saint Laurent for men shirt.
I also went to a good friend's 21st birthday celebration, drank far too many glasses of champagne and cranberry juice and sung wicked at the top of my lungs,,, here are some more pics!
Here are some fashion feelings i'm loving right now...
Tuesday, April 28
lately lovers,
kareoke, champagne, a cold snap and growth!.
(just before we begin- hi all, bonjour, ciao, and desole for the lacking of my blogging recently!)
1. kareoke!
Jem, Bridge and I went to a kooky little asian kareoke bar sometime this week and had 5 hours with too much Yellow and Pink! Here are some pics lovers,,,
I wore:
Don't Ask Amanda translucent shift
Razzamattazz stockings
ZU Lace-up retro wedges
and a few weeks ago i went with some of my good friends including Pippa, my sister ;)... here are some pictures...
I wore:
CURRENCYvintageshift. (sportsgirl circa 1980ish)
Creamclutch
Sorry, about these photos, I would love to have a great excuse for you about why i look terrible, but i think my sobriety level is evident throughout. ha ha!
Forgotten Nights
The other night it was my good friend Tim's party, here is a photo, but there are more coming! I absolutely loved the dress. its on a loan from Elle. (thanks! babe!)
currently listening to Drive In Saturday- David Bowie
1. kareoke!
Jem, Bridge and I went to a kooky little asian kareoke bar sometime this week and had 5 hours with too much Yellow and Pink! Here are some pics lovers,,,
I wore:
Don't Ask Amanda translucent shift
Razzamattazz stockings
ZU Lace-up retro wedges
and a few weeks ago i went with some of my good friends including Pippa, my sister ;)... here are some pictures...
I wore:
CURRENCYvintageshift. (sportsgirl circa 1980ish)
Creamclutch
Sorry, about these photos, I would love to have a great excuse for you about why i look terrible, but i think my sobriety level is evident throughout. ha ha!
Forgotten Nights
The other night it was my good friend Tim's party, here is a photo, but there are more coming! I absolutely loved the dress. its on a loan from Elle. (thanks! babe!)
currently listening to Drive In Saturday- David Bowie
Tuesday, April 21
desole, desole!
Okay, I am terribly, terribly sorry about not being on in ages.
Recently:
I worked at a fashion runway for a night which was unbelievable! It was Toni Chemcevskes (something)'s Collection and i met the nicest models. In a room surrounded by such beautiful creatures, i have decided to get back on the health food, exercise and classy clothing wagon i have fallen off.
Yes, Yes, i have been off for a while, BUT as of tomorrow, i am firming back on the wagon and heading to classtown.
Have a look at these beauties,
i offered my body for a night, week, century to the designer (whom i met (YYYYY)) such a babe- by the way, but i was flatly refused. Partly because he was homosexual, and mostly because even if he wasn't, there were girls in that room that would have outcharmed and out hotted (almost) Mr Edward Cullen himself.
THE WORST THING IS...THE DESIGNER DOESN'T SELL HIS CREATIONS! INCLUDING THESE ORGASMIC SHOES!
WHAT THE FLAME?
okay, here are some more photos...
love!
Recently:
I worked at a fashion runway for a night which was unbelievable! It was Toni Chemcevskes (something)'s Collection and i met the nicest models. In a room surrounded by such beautiful creatures, i have decided to get back on the health food, exercise and classy clothing wagon i have fallen off.
Yes, Yes, i have been off for a while, BUT as of tomorrow, i am firming back on the wagon and heading to classtown.
Have a look at these beauties,
i offered my body for a night, week, century to the designer (whom i met (YYYYY)) such a babe- by the way, but i was flatly refused. Partly because he was homosexual, and mostly because even if he wasn't, there were girls in that room that would have outcharmed and out hotted (almost) Mr Edward Cullen himself.
THE WORST THING IS...THE DESIGNER DOESN'T SELL HIS CREATIONS! INCLUDING THESE ORGASMIC SHOES!
WHAT THE FLAME?
okay, here are some more photos...
love!
Wednesday, April 15
updates
1.le ex and i are going to 'chill' these holidays.
2. hot guy on train has a name 'JOSH' (pretty hot, eh? eh? eh? ;))
3. so tired. that's all
♥
2. hot guy on train has a name 'JOSH' (pretty hot, eh? eh? eh? ;))
3. so tired. that's all
♥
Monday, April 13
SO HOW ARE YOU WITH A CAMERA CREW AT 7AM?
Hi, Hello, Good day Bloggers! Today was all very strange. I woke up very tired and got home at 11am. Then the director came over and spoke with the owners of my household(parents eurgh). It looks like I'm going to have a camera crew following me for 3 days to document my mood due to sleep deprivation. I can't say for which program and which channel online, but im very excited.
My good buddy Calum came over and taught me the bass part to Burning by The Whitest Boy Alive- It's so goddamn hard! Jesus christ, my fingers are dying. i also tried to jam with my trumpet, but i don't know enough yet so it sucked!
Today i wore- Demin GAP Cropped Jacket, American Apparel Float Dress, Stockings David Jones.
Good Day, but i'm EXHAUSTED!
(currently listening to PHOENIX)
much love!
My good buddy Calum came over and taught me the bass part to Burning by The Whitest Boy Alive- It's so goddamn hard! Jesus christ, my fingers are dying. i also tried to jam with my trumpet, but i don't know enough yet so it sucked!
Today i wore- Demin GAP Cropped Jacket, American Apparel Float Dress, Stockings David Jones.
Good Day, but i'm EXHAUSTED!
(currently listening to PHOENIX)
much love!
Sunday, April 12
"YOU MAY NOT BE CATHOLIC, BUT YOU'RE PART OF THIS HOUSEHOLD'S RELIGION-CLEANING! LETS GO!"
God help me, I'm trying to hide out in my-admittedly very, very messy- room while my parents chuck a Cleaning Spree before all of my extended family arrive for Easter lunch.
Oh! Happy Easter Bloggers, by the way. Sorry, I'not exactly feeling the easter cheer(is there one?) when I'm being forced into tidying and cleaning- my least favourite pastimes.
Fashion: Pippa's French Connection Orange Summer dress with my American Apparel tops Black under, then grey on top over the dress, black stockings beads on my wrists etc.
Photos up soon i promise! sorry for the LACK OF PHOTOS. You can blame my dad.
photo credit: Olsens-anonymous.blogspot.com (L)
I ACTUALLY WANT TO BE MARY KATE.
let me at these shoes. seriously, i would commit every sin for them.
much love, and lack of easter cheer!
JULIA
Oh! Happy Easter Bloggers, by the way. Sorry, I'not exactly feeling the easter cheer(is there one?) when I'm being forced into tidying and cleaning- my least favourite pastimes.
Fashion: Pippa's French Connection Orange Summer dress with my American Apparel tops Black under, then grey on top over the dress, black stockings beads on my wrists etc.
Photos up soon i promise! sorry for the LACK OF PHOTOS. You can blame my dad.
photo credit: Olsens-anonymous.blogspot.com (L)
I ACTUALLY WANT TO BE MARY KATE.
let me at these shoes. seriously, i would commit every sin for them.
much love, and lack of easter cheer!
JULIA
Saturday, April 11
"NOW UNIVERSITY! NOW THAT'S A FUTURE, SWEETHEART!"
Sorry, but just letting you know i wont be posting tomorrow!---- going to a movie marathon! yay!
here are some photos though
i bought 2 of these tops from American Apparel today Grey, and Black.
AA is a religion.
really, really want this top from Peel in Newtown... only it was $30! so, im going to ftry and just make it for like 3?
haha
also saw that awful zac efron movie. it was awful, but efron was worth it! now, dont get me wrong, im firmly OFF the zac efron bandwagon, but in shakespeare's words you could say he was a pretty piece of flesh.
this guy? (YYYYYYY)
Also bought a black velvet fitted blazer! photos up soon!
much love
here are some photos though
i bought 2 of these tops from American Apparel today Grey, and Black.
AA is a religion.
really, really want this top from Peel in Newtown... only it was $30! so, im going to ftry and just make it for like 3?
haha
also saw that awful zac efron movie. it was awful, but efron was worth it! now, dont get me wrong, im firmly OFF the zac efron bandwagon, but in shakespeare's words you could say he was a pretty piece of flesh.
this guy? (YYYYYYY)
Also bought a black velvet fitted blazer! photos up soon!
much love
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